UCSB Open Studios November 2015
I meditate every night, at least I attempt to do this. It takes me over an hour to go to sleep on average. So I have turned to my cell phone for help, despite the fact that I know the blue light coming from the screen is keeping me awake. I listen to guided meditations before bed. I am trying to use the technology which helps me stay in a state of anxiety to create mindfulness. The irony is not lost on me. The installation Tactography was built around touch, the longing and the lack. A five channel video and sculpture installation, where illusion is reality and the act of touch is forefront. An experience and environment with nooks and alcoves of motion. In the large projections covering the walls, a repeated sensuous close up video of finger rubbing in water. The movement is hypnotic, the lack of actual haptic sensation palpable. In another corner there is a luxurious chair, covered in a sheep skin, you can sit and watch a slow motion video of a hand caressing the grass. This video is multiplied by the mirrors it is reflected it, making multiple hands in space. There is a hidden piece around a wall covered in projections, that hides an illusion. It looks as though a beam of light is coming from the pedestal, like a human cat toy this beam looks solid, until you move you head and it disappears. The sound in the space is low frequency hypnotic hum based on the solfeggio frequency which some people believe can effect the brain and body. Adding a sense of anxiety that borders on mediation. The whole environment comments on the futility as I try to create a meditative space with the tools of technology.